Thursday, 15 May 2008

I am reading Let Go of the Ring by Ralph Moore and it is really speaking to my need (desire) for control.  He states “God will only call you to do things that are bigger than you are…” and goes on to explain how the ability to visualize the details of an activity to it’s completion probably means that it was conceived of man not God.  This makes sense as we have the mind of men and do not think as God thinks.  I forget the book, but I remember reading that in the Bible.  He also says he had givin his life to the Lord years ago, but not the details.

Lord, I love you.  Please take the details of my life that I may follow you completely.  I beg you to force me to “do the next thing” that Your Kingdom may come and Your will be done.  All honor and glory to you, Abba Father, for ever and ever. Amen

Lord  

Sunday, 11 May 2008

I read some of Psalm 119 today.

I have been seeking the mind of Christ.  What I am hearing is three fold.

1. Read the Holy Scriptures
2. Do the things they say to do, follow the instructions
3. Give ALL control over to God

Last night I had a very scary dream.  My wife or daughter was locked up in a hospital and no matter what I would try I did not have the power to help or even to get them out.  The feeling of not being in control is the most terrifying of emotions for me, but I know in my head that control is what is standing between me and God’s will.  I must release all control to the Holy Spirit.

Lord, thank you for this insight.  Please give me the strength to be week.  Let the battle be not mine, but yours.  I desire to be your servant.